7 Nov 2008 - 22 Nov 2008:
071108 / 171108 was one of the happiest day(s) of the girl's life.
It was the first time in more than five years that the girl had a love confession or at least had someone confess his feelings for her.
the girl was on cloud nine and experience many euphoric feelings. it was not an easy decision because the girl knew that she would be leaving the country soon and would be very far away from the boy. so what the girl propose was to treat this special moment as a holiday romance but little did she realise how difficult the aftermath would be and till this day, still regrets that she did not have the courage to take it beyond the day she left the country.
Until now, the girl still thinks of the boy..of his smell..of his kiss .
the time the girl spent with the boy was one of her happiest moments in the country. She loved every minute of it. the girl love it when the boy said that he liked her before it started and still likes her very much. this was in an email on 171108. the girl regrets not taking sufficient time to reply to the boy and still regrets it today.
the boy by now, would have moved on as youth is on his side. whereas the girl is experiencing inertia - whilst longing for the past, hopes to move on in time.
the girl knew then that the timing was not right. the girl likes the boy very much but felt that the timing for the boy to go through with this, was misplaced.
the girl felt it unfair to have to put the boy through it - less a burden to have to think of the girl ten thousand miles away.
the girl's affection for someone is usually through actions i.e. the girl would try her best to help him when asked to do so. Yes, the girl would whine a bit but she would see it through. the girl has little experience with matters of the heart. She does not know what to expect with such relationships however brief it is. the girl loves the boy's company and enjoys doing things with the boy - going to museums, cinemas, dining at little inexpensive cafes she does not care so long as she is in good company, that's all that matters.
the girl loves it when she learns new things from the boy whatever his age is. the girl has gone past the age barrier and the boy's age is the girl's little secret that she shall not reveal.
the girl recently read books by Paulo Coelho and now understands that love simply is, no commitment, no debt. And the girl can boldly say she loves the boy. the girl wishes the boy would sense it but thinks the likelihood of that happening is like a drop in the ocean. Shakespeare says that the course of true love never did run smooth. but it can nevertheless run if two interested persons will it enough. the girl has no explanation for loving the boy but she just does. Coelho says that 'true love can withstand all forms of separation'. Nevertheless, the girl just want the boy to be happy.
Now, the girl is just sorry that she did not tell the boy the truth in her heart in 112008. In time, the boy would have forgotten about the girl. In time, the girl's heart would have died a little.
Yet, the girl still hopes that one day, the boy would meet her in a museum somewhere in this little world.
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